Wow! I can't believe that it's been 4 years since I even looked at this blog!! I thought about deleting it and starting a new one, but I really like the posts that are here so I'll just start fresh here.
Lots has happened since I last blogged, but I am still trying to navigate being a boy and all that that entails. I've struggled a bit, and my identity has ebbed and flowed throughout the last four years. I feel like I'm really coming into myself and acknowledging parts of me that I tried for many reasons to stuff down. I tried so hard to be the burly, manly man that I felt like I was supposed to be because I transitioned. For so many years I was afraid of appearing or acting too feminine - because then people might wonder why I even bothered to transition in the first place. That's been a hard one for me to wrestle with. But I want to be happy, with myself and with my life. I don't want to try to be something I'm not. I am not a manly man. I am soft, I am emotional, I like to feel pretty and smell pretty. Sure, there are days that I want to wear jeans and boots and a buffalo plaid shirt and look Minnesota sexy. But there are also days that I like painting my toenails, wearing makeup, and smelling like Victoria's Secret Very Sexy perfume. And that's perfectly ok. I refuse to be bound by societal norms and expectations.
That is all for now, but please follow the blog and share it with anyone you know who might be on a similar path!
In Love and Leather
Michael
I think you have to maintain a fluidity in sexual expression, and never expect to play one role all the time. If we did we would get bored and be boring. I like my partners to surprise me... like when a dominant asks for a submissive scene or vice versa. Or when a leather daddy suddenly slaps on a corset or heels... it seems empowering to play. Why not embrace that? You can still be old guard, follow protocols, but shake things up.
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